• Some days

    Reaching a new place in life where I honestly fear being afraid. It’s not a pleasant place, full of catastrophic scenarios, disasters of epic proportions, chains of events that end in my doom… or worse, my kids’. These days are fewer and farther between, but they still exist. It’s my insecurity speaking, while my rational…

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  • I go slowly. I make compromises with myself. I feel guilty that some days (or even weeks) I cannot bring myself to write… But then I reach a milestone: the first time I have enough revised words to print. And I feel so proud. I did it. It’s here. It’s real. It’s just 8,500 words,…

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  • Focus Focus

    I’ve decided to completely let go of the idea of building a brand or an Instagram profile, or whatever I’ll eventually need to sell this book, at this stage. On one hand, I know social media takes time. I also know that without it, it will be virtually impossible to sell anything. So at some…

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  • Soulful Lines

    About the last few days and the bizarre experience of it all. The closer you are to death, the more alive you feel. It’s a wonderful way to live. It’s the only way to drive. James Hunt – Rush

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  • About the week

    There’s nothing in life that comes without putting in the work. Every skill takes hours. You just need to put those hours in, there’s no other way. And do not believe anyone who tells you otherwise. When you are younger, you tell yourself that person A or person B are just more talented at music…

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  • But above all, I am tired of pretending that I don’t want the things I clearly do. I know what those things are! I know I want them. I know what I have to do to get them and I know no one will stop me. I also know I will be here to laugh…

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  • Old wounds

    Duran Duran – Come Undone The song that opened the gates to more unprocessed childhood trauma. Eventually, one day in my life I will get to the bottom of it. I will process everything that happened and stop crying about it. But today is not that day, it seems. This lovely show from the 90s…

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  • Undoubtedly

    What are you manifesting for this year? This year I am manifesting more friends. I want more people that I can be an absolute clown with. Finish this sentence: Love feels like… Love feels like peace. Connor Storrie for Tiffany and Co.

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  • Being a fangirl

    We are not all the same. I am in love with a fictional character, and he is not real. For that reason, I can say or think a lot of unreasonable things about him. I can obsess, daydream, feel everything that character was built to make me feel. He was written for that, he was…

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  • Restlessness

    I am living in a constant state of restlessness. Forcing myself to stand still while my entire body screams for action. Blaming the winter season, the heavy mood in the house, my father’s death anniversary and his birthday (he would have been 75 this year). Blaming the calm at work, the damn consistent routine I’ve…

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